05.25.03::19:50

boys don't cry.

stupid movies always make me cry. 2 am phone calls with a bitter ring and no release, spider web blankets and a cold foreign hand on my thigh. sad make-out music from yesterdays ago, i can't stand it. intricate numbers and formations that won't ever make sense to me. no more pure white, no more pure black, just empty telephone wires and malicious children.

and i will never ever say that it's been fun. nor will i ever give up my childhood or cease to chastise you for yours.

write my name on elastic bands so i remember what to say when i see you. speeches line my palms so i can force candy-coated words out and my jaw doesn't lock.

that's as far as it ever will go.


necromancy. or the fucking grave