nothing. absolutely. nothing. void. unforgotten, but unremembered. &while i've always said that's exactly the way that i wanted it to be, it never ever (-) was like that to begin with.

i've cried for hours tonight, with every kind of tear. i've unleashed myself, unhindered, against the fury of the ancient greeks and modern heart-breakers for an eternity, while my heart screamed 9x9 # too many variables for this sad equation to work, too many unknowns to figure out the root.

[trash]

[trash]

[trash]

can't you fucking see me spelling out your name in the stars? i wish that i knew who you were so i would know who could come running when i call help. vicious eyes. (queen of the damned, king of hearts, countless spade angels.)